the breeze is lighter
the sun shines brighter
the flowers bloom
colors a flow
the trees renew
and grass is filled with dew
smiles on faces
hopes to travel many new places
hearts are finally thawing
the breeze is lighter
the sun shines brighter
the flowers bloom
colors a flow
the trees renew
and grass is filled with dew
smiles on faces
hopes to travel many new places
hearts are finally thawing
One day, I hope to be a mom, and I thought about what I would want to say to my own daughter. The advice I would give her. Here it is…
March 19, 2018
Dear Sweet Girl,
I know life isn’t always going to be easy for you. I know jobs will be hard to find and boys will break your heart. And people you are close to will disappoint you at times. Myself included, sadly. No one is perfect.
If you are anything like me, I know insecurity will find you and you will have to fight to see the silver lining in every bad day. I know you will question your faith in times of pain and grief. And wonder what your true purpose is.
I know you may fight your anxiety everyday like I do and I also know that you can and you will win.
My hope is that you never have to deal with any of these hardships. That you are forever cast with a smile on your face. But living in this world, I know that is unfortunately an unrealistic notion. There will be bad days. There will be sad days.
I know that you will be so loved by so many, that you will feel like you have to always be good and “perfect.” To always say/do the right thing. Your self awareness and self consciousness will be both a weakness and a strength for you. But your heart is so big.
Just breathe my girl and you will get through it all-one foot at a time. One day at a time. Because you are a force to be reckoned with. You are your own heroine. The star of your own sold out show. You can be anything you want to be.
Never let anyone tell you different or try to dull the sparkle that surrounds your very soul. And please… never stop dreaming.
Love You Always,
Many of you may not know Alexz Johnson, but allow me to introduce you to her, she is an incredible talent.
Disney kids may recognize her from a Disney show- So Weird. Where as a young girl she played a character who dealt with strange almost supernatural occurrences.
But when I hear her name a different show comes to mind- Instant Star.
Instant Star was a Canadian television program which aired from September 15, 2004 to June 26, 2008- 4 seasons. The series starred Alexz Johnson as adolescent music competition winner Jude Harrison. The show chronicles Harrison’s experience in the recording industry whilst focusing on character development. The program began to air on CTV in Canada prior to being picked up by Viacom-owned teen network channel The N, now TeenNick, in the United States. The show became the second most popular program on The N with Degrassi: The Next Generation, a Canadian show also produced by Schuyler and Stohn, ranking as most popular. -Wikipedia
Show Summary: At age 15, Jude Harrison (played by Alexz Johnson) won a national singer/songwriter talent search. With the overnight fame and the recording contract came some tough decisions. Now she’s more mature but still struggling with success and her often-problematic love life which just so happens to include balancing love trysts between her best friend Jamie- who’s had a crush on her for years, an asshole of a R&B singer Shay, and her older yet so gorgeous producer and former Boyz Attack boy band member Tom “Tommy Q” Quincy played by Tim Rozon.
Tommy was the one who takes up most of her time, and whom I “shipped” her with before shipping was even a thing. Tommy was 22 and Jude turned 16 in Season 1 putting him about 6 years older than Jude. But somehow they just had such a connection that you just forgive the inappropriate age gap- Age ain’t nothing but a number when it comes to these two. And you end up rooting for them. It’s super fun to watch the spunky teen give Tommy’s laid back (at times jealous) nature a run for his money. They have so many adorable moments in the studio while working on her albums. And the way they look at each other is just everything. Granted there was a TON of drama, and Tommy wasn’t always the best at handling his strong feelings for Jude. But the story was one I’ve always loved and thanks to YouTube I can re-watch it all over again. Start watching HERE!
Sadly the show got cancelled and season 4 felt a bit like a rushed wrap up. Leaving Tommy Q with a broken heart. He proposed marriage on the brink of Jude’s career exploding and going international. She agreed but when it came time for them to ride off into the sunset together and for him to join her on her international tour, she declined. And chose to go alone. I get it, she was quite young and she needed to find her own way, and find herself. But after so many seasons of waiting for them to finally be together, it was very disappointing.
Needless to say they had some incredible moments, and the show left fans with some incredible music and opened my eyes to all that Alexz Johnson truly is. The music for the show, is so so good. The lyrics are amazing, the vocals are fire. Johnson has released many of her own material as well, since the show ended, and it’s amazing. Her voice is like a crisp, clear day. It cuts right through to your soul.
Check her stuff out- http://alexzjohnson.com/
Here are some of my favorite Tommy & Jude moments.
(Pardon the repeated scenes)
Tommy talking about how he wishes he could be with Jude, but she’s too young. Plus their first kiss.
“But if she was 21?” “Ohh in a spilt second.” AHHHHHHH I LOVE THIS!!!!
“There’s my look.”
“You know exactly why.”
“I want all of you, with me, forever….because I love you.”
The kiss that made them reunite one last time!!!
Some of my favorite songs from the show are listed below. (Yes I own some of the soundtracks! That’s how much I loved the show and the music!) *You can listen to them all on YouTube or Spotify! Also check Alexz Johnson’s projects out on there too! I love the songs; Running with the Devil, Look At Those Eyes, Hunger Pains and Skipping Stone.
Waste My Time
Let Me Fall
Skin (my absolute favorite*)
Time To Be Your 21
It Could Be You
Picking Up The Pieces
My Sweet Time
Anyone But You
Where Does It Hurt
I Don’t Know If I Should Stay
Don’t You Dare
How Strong Do You Think I Am
I Still Love You
*I do not own any videos/images used.*
Hallmark series When Calls the Heart is such a wholesome gem. I fell in love with it last year when I binge watched it and got caught up before the return of it’s 4th Season.
Now it’s in it’s 5th season, and I unfortunately no longer get the Hallmark channel. And I miss it so much! Not only do I miss the fun seasonal movie themes but I miss this Sunday night series terribly! I try to keep up with it through social media, but it’s just not the same.
I haven’t found a free, reliable way to watch online either. 😦
All I know is there was a Christmas Special which I missed, and then the first 3 episodes have aired. Last season we left off with Jack proposing to Elizabeth who obviously said yes! But then he had to leave to go fight in a war. Leaving us #Hearties heartbroken.
So Erin Krakow’s Elizabeth Thatcher was left waiting for quite a long time. Waiting in worry.
Daniel Lissing who plays the role of Constable Jack Thornton, was absent from many of the ending episodes of the 4th season. And from what I’ve learned online, he wasn’t in the first few episodes of the 5th season either. [However it did appear he was home for Christmas briefly]. I hated not having our favorite smouldering Mountie at Elizabeth’s side.
Needless to say he returned in this past Sunday’s episode and their reunion was so sweet and charming, as usual. Thank you to the sweet soul on instagram who uploaded clips!
Jack and Elizabeth have FINALLY set a date for their wedding, maid of honors and best men have been picked and Rosemary is clearly already in planning mode.
It’s so sweet to see how happy Jack is to start his life with Elizabeth. He even created a rough blueprint for their future home, and took her to the land he bought for them. 5 bedrooms! He’s planning on growing their family that’s for sure! #LoveScene? 😉 They even had a sweet candle lit dance with a music box he bought while on his travels through the Northern Territories.
“There are so many rooms!”- Elizabeth
“Family is going to grow, right?”- Jack
“Apparently by a lot.”- Elizabeth *Of course Elizabeth has her shy eyes on.*
“I want to put a big dining room right here.”- Jack
“How big?”- Elizabeth
“Well big enough to fit all of the Thornton Clan.”- Jack
So cute! I can’t take it. He’s so excited!
However, in sneak peeks for future episodes. It appears that the wedding planning doesn’t exactly go so smoothly. With a fire in the church, I imagine that will set things back. And a few moments of pain inflicted in Jack’s eyes, hints that we may get a bit into what he suffered through during the war. There seems to be a potential post traumatic stress disorder story on the horizon. If you ask me that is so realistic and makes total sense. Jack is very quiet in his emotions, very laid back. Never likes to make a fuss. Even when he and Elizabeth had their breaks in their relationship he was never overly dramatic about their confrontations. Sure he’s well skilled in the grand gestures, but he’s worked on them for 5 years, at the beginning of their courtship boy did he stumble over his feet.
Jack is so grateful to come home to the love of his life, but he’s throwing himself into planning their wedding and their future life together without taking a break. It’s all going to come crashing down on him. And I sense from what I’ve seen so far, that Elizabeth knows that. She’s asked him several times to “Take a breath,” to “rest and relax because he must be exhausted.” She also has been asking him about the war and what it was like, to which he often deflects saying it “was what is was, and it’s over now.”
“I’ve waited so long for this.”-Elizabeth
“It’s good to be home.”-Jack
“Now we can go back to where we were.”
“I don’t wanna be engaged.”-Jack
“”I wanna get married. Build a house. Start a family.”
“Okay. Catch your breath.”-Elizabeth
“I don’t need to. The thought of coming home to you, and having you there everyday, it energizes me. It got me through some rough times.”
I just love them. They are so sweet together and he really loves and respects her so much. I get all giddy just thinking about all the sweet little moments they’ve had together over the seasons- playful banter, disagreements, kisses, all the small looks and smiles. Even when they talk about each other with other people they’ve said such sweet things. In fact this past Sunday in a chat with a younger man- Jesse who is courting Clara (Abigail’s daughter in law whom came to live in Hope Valley after her husband was killed in the mine accident along with Abigail’s husband) asked for some advice. Jack responded that he knows he’s smart enough to know how lucky he is. When Jesse inquires if he and Elizabeth ever broke up, Jack answers that there were times when they put things on hold. He and Elizabeth took some time getting back to each other but they did in the end. Jack further explains that if Jesse and Clara are meant to be they will find their way. It was so sweet to see how he is now in this position to give a younger man advice. Many times he would seek his own advice about Elizabeth from sources like Lee, Bill Avery, and Abigail. He and Elizabeth have come a long way and have really grown together. The list is endless, I could go on all day. In fact I’ve been re-watching seasons on Netflix just to get my WCTH fix. I miss it so much! Lol.
It’s so crazy that they are at this point in their relationship, I mean from their early scenes together, it’s beautiful to see them now so in love. It seems like time flew by. I mean granted I binged on Netflix, I’m sure those who watched live feel like it’s been an eternity. But in many ways I too feel like it’s taken them quite long to get engaged and now married. I mean Jack was courting Elizabeth for quite a while, and Rosemary and Lee even got married in season 3, before our favorite Hope Valley couple Elizabeth and Jack. Lee and Rosemary are super cute though too! I love how he is so patient with her and all her craziness! Lol.
Although Rosemary came into Hope Valley at the end of Season 1 hoping to win Jack back (Plot Twist she and Jack used to be engaged!) It’s so crazy to see how much has changed, Rosemary and Elizabeth used to be each other’s competition, and now they are the best of friends. And so are Lee and Jack! Lee didn’t come in until the beginning of Season 2 and the two wed in Season 3! So it’s been a bit of a fast track for the Coulters.
So mind you, you can imagine how anxious we #Hearties have been to see Elizabeth and Jack finally on their way to tying the knot. IN TWO WEEKS! Gosh it’s going to kill me not to watch it! It’s such a big season for them! And I am very passionate when it comes to television and my ships! After all he’s had the damn ring since like what Season 1 or 2, I think! It’s been a long, beautiful journey and I really miss watching it live!
I guess I’ll have to stick it out and wait until Season 5 is on Netflix. 😦
In the meantime I wanted to chat about the things that make this show so charming. And a lot of that has to do with the fact that it’s set in a small town. I love small towns, and quaint little cafes, church and shops. I love the simplicity of their life, (not to mention that they have such a comradery in hope and faith throughout the town).
And last but not least I LOVE the FASHION.
Fashion in the 1910’s were all about the long skirts, and the corsets. The lace, pastel colors, and dainty earrings. The hair was also in a league of it’s own with simple updo’s with a twist or long soft curls. In the first season, Elizabeth dressed a bit more showy, with large hats and flashy dresses, after all she hailed from Hamilton where she lived a wealthy city life. But soon she embraced the more simplistic nature of Hope Valley and toned things down a bit. She found herself, she found her home.
But for a character like Abigail Stanton played by the lovely Lori Loughlin, she had a bit of the reverse happen. When we first meet her she is all about simple undo’s and no makeup. Beautiful no matter what, but soon Abigail starts to find herself again, she starts to find hope too and realizes she still has so much living to still do despite suffering so much loss when the coal mine tragedy struck taking her husband and son from her. She starts to let her hair down again, and begins entertaining some gentleman callers who obviously couldn’t help but fall for her. All while being a café owner and town mayor. Total Girl Boss.
Simplicity at it’s best…
I just love it all. Rosemary spices things up with her red crimson wardrobe as only she could! #Theatrics
*Get the 1910’s inspired look HERE
One of these days I plan to host a 1910’s inspired party. I need to dress up! I’m dying to play pretend and live in Hope Valley for a day.
When Calls the Heart airs on Sundays @ 9 pm on the Hallmark Channel.
*I do not take credit for any images/videos used.*
Funk, slump, busy week off, and a sinus infection later and I was left feeling super run down and sick. And now I am trying to pull my life back together and get back into my routine of doing things and accomplishing my goals.
And that means returning to this blog. I’ve missed it, but I’ve been lying in the bubble of uninspired ideas. So I usually turn to music and YouTube when that happens and recently I’ve just revisited some things that inspired me in the past…
These are the women that often inspire my creativity. They are all just filled with good, calm, healthy vibes. I feel like such a hippie girl. I want to just throw on my kimono and moccasins and roast marshmallows by a fire pit. #BohemianGirl
Joy Williams– Venus Album
Such a powerful girl power anthem. Her whole Venus album spoke to me. As earthy and hippie as I sound. Joy is actually in the process of recording her next album! So excited, I cannot wait! I would love to see her live in concert.
Rachel Talbott– YouTuber/Vlogger/Musician
I really love Rachel’s YouTube content. Every time I watch her I just feel so relaxed and like I want to create a better, more balanced, healthy life style. Her demeanor is so sweet and serene.
I actually made my own spa pedicure because of this, and I loved it so much. I think I may continue doing this more often…when I have a bit of extra pamper time.
Visit Rachel’s new shop online @ PacificThyme.com She has some absolutely beautiful things on there and the prices are more affordable then I’ve seen in a while. I just bought a candle, a loose tea, and a tea infuser and I cannot wait to get them!
I was never a huge Disney kid, I had my favorites- The Little Mermaid/Pocahontas. But I love the soundtracks. Every time I hear a Disney song I just feel like I want to cry. It just tugs at the heart strings. And this medley includes some of the absolute best ones! That Rachel…such a talent.
Bethany Joy Lenz-
This woman is always always always an inspiration to me. And recently I’ve just been listening to her soulful music again. She actually just released a new little track entitled Ghost Stories. You can listen to it on her twitter.
Here’s a vlog of mine from her concert I attended a few summers ago. It was an epic time!
This next concert was one I found on YouTube- a StageIt show, she had a while back. How gorgeous is her look! And that hair cut was pure fire. (video quality is a bit lagging) Her song “Dance with me” is my fav! ❤
Joy also paints and she has been sharing a lot of her work on her art instagram account The Lenz Gallery.
Kalyn Nicholson– YouTuber/Vlogger/Author
This girl is inspiration reincarnated. Watching her plan her days and check her items off her list is oddly satisfying. Because I know how it feels to be a planner and a list maker. She’s real and she’s got these really chill vibes about her. I love the music she uses in her videos, I love her fashion and her home décor style. She makes it seem like you can really get through all your lists and encourages productivity. She also coined GYST day…a Get Your Sh*t Together Day!
Who/what inspires you?
It’s been a bit, I know.
Today I would like to talk about the February Slump. I know you know what I’m referring to.
You know that point in the new year where you start to slack off on all the goals you set out to accomplish this year.
I knew this time would come. January was a month of making changes, and making lists, and plans for a better future. Putting things into motion and action.
Then once February came, I started noticing myself slacking. Going to bed late, not reading/writing everyday. My daily goals getting distracted by life and the day to day.
Overall, January was pretty great for me. I felt like I was forming a routine, and working out consistently, taking my vitamins, drinking a lot of water, carving out a day within the week to work on each of my big goals for the year. [SEE HERE by reading my- January 2018 Update]
But came February and a few late nights, family functions, and busy times and I started slacking. My goal was not to get angry with myself when this happened but to pick myself back up and hop back onto the routine I’ve started to create, improving it and crafting it as I go along. And that’s what I’m hoping to do this week. Thankfully I am on winter break and I can strive to plan things a little better. However, why is it that it’s only Monday and I already feel like the week is over. There’s so much I want to do, clean, research, make time to see friends and family. You know what they say, there’s never enough time in a day.
I just need to get myself back on track and learn to balance my time to include my dreams, my goals, and my inspirations with my family and my friends, work, (tv shows, because #TVJunkie) and a social life.
Balance is key. And that is what I need to build on in order for all of this to work. Life is a balancing act. Summers become Winters. Christmas becomes Easter in the blink of an eye. And before you know it, the goals you set out to accomplish in that year, are rolled over into the next.
This year I want that to change. I want inspiration, change, and determination to run through my veins. Change? Michelle, you want change? What? You hate change. No you don’t, your just scared of it.
Change is a scary word. But not all change is bad. And I think I’m starting to realize that in order for my dreams to come true I’m going to have to let change in. I want to take action. Take control over my life. There are things I always put on hold, things I just don’t force myself to do, habits that come and go. I let life lead me, rather than the other way around. And then I mentally scold myself for not accomplishing my goals.
So…this year I’ve started to implement the necessary changes I need to do in order to reach my goals. Granted, it’s a slow climb. I’m definitely a work in progress, and I’ve definitely had my days/weeks where I’ve slacked off. The important thing is to acknowledge the slump and work towards moving past it. I know I shouldn’t beat myself up over it, because that’s not going to help me. And I can’t go back in time and change it. Getting down over it and scolding myself will only make me feel bad which in turn will hinder my motivation starting a vicious cycle and I don’t want that. So time to focus, time to revamp, time to balance.
Keep going girl, you got this!
*I do not take credit for any images used.*
two souls combining
weathering all storms of fear and uncertainty
having patience and understanding
opening doors and buying flowers just because
a look, a whisper, a touch
Love is fire
Love is rain
Love is friendship
Love is pain
Love is passion
Love is comfortable silence
Love is an embrace like no other
Happy Valentine’s Day!
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