What’s In My Purse?-Pumpkin Picking Edition

As you may have read in my Monday post, I went pumpkin picking with my family this past weekend. Read my FALL HAUL.

I was switching over my purse to my work bag, when I realized how much crap I actually carried with me on that day. And it sparked an idea for a what’s in my purse post.

Let’s start with the bag itself- I went with my good, old, trusty, no name brand, big, cross body, sack bag. It’s a neutral brown which goes with a lot and it fits a ton of stuff.



Now for the contents….a.k.a my whole life #BraceYourselves it’s a lot of stuff!


From Left to Right:

Digital Camera– because sometimes cell phones suck!

Cellphone– because duh?

Alcohol wipes– because you never know if you get a cut and need to clean it out.

Toilet Seat covers To Go– because I knew I was going to be dealing with porta potties. #EW

Cleansing wipes– because again…porta potties.

Hand Sanitizer– because there was a petting zoo-Lol. #AndImAGermaphobe

Tissues– for the fall sniffles.

Wallet-because moneyyyy.

Eye glasses– because sometimes I need them.

Mints, toothpicks, and gum– because they are always good to carry. #KeepingItFresh #KeepingMeSane

House keys– because duh?😉

Oil blotting sheets– shout out to my oily skin girls! #IFeelYourPain #TheStruggleIsReal

A Hair Tie– because sometimes fall weather gets confused.

A Water Bottle– because long drives, and lots of walking.

Spray Bottle– just in case you need a little spritz and refresher.

Bag of lollipops, sour balls, jolly ranchers, cough drops– because of the fall throat tickles/car rides #PeopleGetCarSick

Granola Bars– because it was a long day, and if I needed a boost I was prepared.

Lipstick, chapstick, a mirror– because girly junk #cute😉

Pads/Liners– because girl, you should always be prepared.

Tea bag holder– because yes, I travel with my own tea.

Pepto Bismol, Tylenol, Tums– because I’m a pharmacy. (I actually helped a cousin who had a headache, see my neuroticness pays off.)😉

A notepad & pen– because I’m a writer.

Band-Aids– because you ever know.

Lotion– because everyone loves moisturized hands. Haha.

Headphones– because music.

Sunglasses– because sun beams are still kicking.

My outfit:

Jeans & a Tee

Comfortable Sneakers

A Flannel

A soft fuzzy vest


*Perfect for removing layers and being comfy on a long drive and a long day with a lot of movement and walking.


*All photos are my own.*








Fall Haul.

I’m going to agree with the rest of the world and say that Fall is my favorite season. The leaves begin to change colors, the weather starts to get cooler, the pumpkin things take over the world, and the fashion feels more expressive.

Along with all of that, comes the fun fall festivities. While in preparation for Halloween.

This past weekend my family and I went pumpkin picking and I really took advantage of the fall vibes I was feeling and bought some great little goodies in the little market they had there.

So I thought I’d do a little Fall Haul

First and foremost-Gotta get some pumpkins I picked the big one, it’s a good size and I can’t wait to decorate it this year! I already have an idea! My mom picked the little one!

Apple Cider– this stuff is delicious! And it’s a fall must for me! I had one during the day and had to bring some home with me! The apple taste is so crisp and cool and I bet this one will taste just as good warmed up.

Pumpkin Butter– I cannot wait to try this! I love apple butter, and I love Pumpkin flavored things, so I just feel like this is going to be so good with some toast!


Apple Cider DonutsAnother yearly must for me! These are so good, and we got them freshly baked! Soft, sugary and delicious!


Peach PieSince I already had a whole lot of apple going on, I wanted to get a different flavored pie. I saw this peach pie and had to buy it! It is so good and everyone seems to be enjoying it!


A little door décor– I bought this cute little silver sparkly Ghost for my Brother and Very Soon to be Sister in law’s new apartment. How cute is he? I thought it was different and sweet and they were very happy. My sister in law even named him-Meet Hershey.😀


A little something for the kiddiesThese cute little masks were the perfect little gifts to give my little sweeties,. After all they are the reason I can get away with acting like such a big kid at these type of family outings. Two are my cousins and the little one is my god daughter. How cute is this pic?


And there you have it for my Fall Haul, the fall vibes and spirit are kicking in big time…time to watch Halloweentown!😉


*All photos are my own.*



Cloaked in the Night



A Dark night sky sets in.

A moon high above, so round and bright, wolves would howl at it.

Her healed black booties clicking and clacking against the concrete floor.

The cool fall breeze rustles around her as leaves lift from the floor.

Cloaked figures cast on grassy front porches.

Halloween season is upon the neighborhood.

Witches, spiders, goblins and ghosts.

Bubble, bubble, toil and trouble.

One figure catches her eye and causes her to double back.

A Skeleton off to the side, his glare steady, cold.

She looks intently on at it, she shudders.

“Creepy,” she huffs to herself, picking up her pace.

She glances around her surroundings, no one in sight.

A deep knot forming in the pit of her stomach.

Was this midnight ice cream run, really that important? She thinks.

Mentally kicking herself, she starts to psych herself out, as every single sound is enhanced.



Her own shoes scuffling.

She turns to look behind her…nothing.

She quickens her steps, her destination a mere few blocks away.

Her heart pounding, she feels a brush of air touch her neck.

The overhead street lamp flickers.

She stills.

Slowly turning around, the cloaked skeleton figure that stood just in front of the nearby house- gone.

Her breathing is filled with an intense anxiety and weight.

Turning to look around, her scream rings through the night as the darkness closes around her.


*I do not take credit for the images used in my edit.*





Things I’ve Been Loving

Music. What would I do without you?

My current obsession has been Shawn Mendes’ new album Illuminate (deluxe).

It kinda has a really familiar favorite vibe to me. Like a John Mayer, Kris Allen, Ed Sheeran vibe. Which I LOVE! He’s definitely matured artistically-writing wise and vocally. And his lyrics are still beautiful…sexier, but beautiful. Lol.

Here are my current favorites-

Fav “Ruin” Lyrics

Do ya… do you think about me?
And do ya… do you feel the same way? Yeah
And do ya… do you remember how we felt?
‘Cause I do. So listen to me, baby.

And do ya… do you think about me at all?

And I’m not tryna ruin your happiness,
But darling, don’t you know that I’m the only one for ya?
And I’m not tryna ruin your happiness, baby,
But darling, don’t you know that I’m the only one?
Do I ever cross your mind?
Do I
Do I ever cross your mind?
Do I ever cross your mind?
Do I ever cross your mind?
Do I ever cross your mind?

Fav “Treat You Better” Lyrics

I know I can treat you better than he can
And any girl like you deserves a gentleman
Tell me why are we wasting time
On all your wasted crying
When you should be with me instead
I know I can treat you better
Better than he can

I’ll stop time for you
The second you say you’d like me too
I just wanna give you the loving that you’re missing
Baby, just to wake up with you
Would be everything I need and this could be so different
Tell me what you want to do

Fav “No Promises” Lyrics

Oh no we don’t need to overcomplicate it
Cause I’ve been here once before don’t even say it

Baby please no promises
Cause we won’t keep our promises
And I know the consequences
So baby please, baby please no promises

I’ve never been a fan of heartbreak
So tell me what you want
Take my hands across your body
We don’t have to hold on

Fav “Lights On” Lyrics

*Um Dang Shawn Mendes….smooth criminal you, how old are you dude?

Damn, you look so good with your clothes on
And I’m not trying to come off too strong
But you know that I can’t help it
Cause girl you’re beautiful

And I can’t deny I want your body
But I’m a gentleman so I’ll be
The one who takes it slowly
Cause girl you’re so beautiful

I wanna love you with the lights on
Keep you up all night long
Darling I wanna see every inch of you
I get lost in the way you move
I wanna love you with the lights on
Hold you ’til the nights gone
Darling I wanna see every inch of you
I get lost in the way you move
I wanna love you with the lights on

Fav “Hold On” Lyrics

Stop, take it in
And I breath for a minute
I think too much when I’m alone
I never win when I
Keep all my thoughts inside
So I pick up the phone

And my dad said “Shawn, stay with me
Everything will be alright
I know I haven’t seen you lately
But you’re always on my mind”

I don’t know what
You’re going through
But there’s so much life
Ahead of you
And it won’t slow down
No matter what you do
So you just gotta hold on
All we can do is hold on, yeah

Seriously which girl isn’t going to wish these songs were written for her? Or want a guy to write songs like this about her? I can’t. Just so good. Funky, sexy vibes. Cool guitar moments. A+ Mendes. You are one to watch out for!


TV. My heart.

This week’s How To Get Away With Murder…hit me with another doozy.

Connor and Oliver. These two are killing me with this break up. Although I want them together forever, this storyline could be really good. This push and pull between the two characters. The sexy tension. YAY! Drama. It seems like Oliver doesn’t know what he wants. He breaks up with Connor, but he still tells Connor there’s no rush to move out,  still wants to work with Connor, still wants to walk over to their job together, still tries to make Connor feel better about his difficult case, still cooking for him and wanting to celebrate his first case win, he still cares. And when Connor finally agrees to give Oliver what he wants and says he will start packing, Oliver objects in tears. What the hell is going on?

And as for Connor, I’ve never seen him so vulnerable, and emotional. He pours his heart out and gets clobbered. And that kiss was perfect. (Another thing- Oliver still kissed Connor back) I wanted to cry. My heart broke. Also I’ve never seen Connor so unsure of himself. He’s pretty cocky and pretty confident and for his personal failure to be affecting his professional obstacles shows just how much he had grown to rely on Oliver always being there. As for why they are breaking up, I really don’t buy Oliver’s crappy reasoning, because if he’s “been thinking about it all summer.” why the hell did he pretend to be Connor and decline Connor’s Stanford acceptance. If he wanted space, he would have had it. Tons of it. But he didn’t want to move and he didn’t want Connor to either. So I think there’s something else going on. And I think Oliver loves Connor just as much and Connor loves him. I just hope that they are both okay. I hope Oliver’s health status hasn’t escalated and he isn’t breaking it off with Connor to spare him or whatever. And I also hope that Shonda Rhimes doesn’t screw us all and kill one of them off, like we know she loves to do!



A Rant & A Poem- Something About Stress

I’m going to vent, because well- I need to. I’ve recently been really stressed out and I saw a décor sign while I was shopping that just fit my situation perfectly.

“You can do anything, but not everything.”


Holy freaking shit. Excuse the language. But how true is that?

I really wish sometimes that I wasn’t such an anxious, neurotic person. I wish I could just be Zen and chill, and go with the flow. I wish I didn’t have to plan and over think. I wish I didn’t have to constantly feel like a fixer. Oh this looks wrong, let me fix it.

Note to self: Hey Michelle, this actually doesn’t concern you- butt out!

But I am who I am. I do believe people can change, but only so much. Certain lessons and learned habits are just ingrained in our brains. And others are tattooed along the way. I’ve been trying to realize that the fact that I care so much, doesn’t have to be a bad thing. I’m an empathetic person and being able to see things from both sides, is a great quality. It’s a human quality. But sometimes having to always see things from other people’s perspectives can really be exhausting. Because quite frankly, I don’t always feel like people give me the same courtesy. But then my soul kicks me in the ass, and I think about what God would do and what he would say. I have a feeling it would go a little like the “Oh so just because they do this, you think its ok for you to do this?” And the truth is no, it’s not ok. But sometimes you just do it anyway. Because you need to. Because your fed up, because you’ve had enough. Because the others shouldn’t be able to get away with it- All. The. Time. Sometimes the tit for tat feeling, feels good. A lot of the times it feels good for a second and then it feels really shitty. I hate it. I like to be liked. I like to make people happy. I hate confrontation. I hate awkward situations and tension. I try to avoid it because it will just add to my anxiety and cause people to see me in a negative light. A light I try so hard to stay far away from. Because let’s be honest, we all care what people think. Some of us more than others. #Guilty. Tit for tat is not my style. I know who I am, and even though sometimes I lose that every now and then, I always find my way back home. The way to my true heart.

Now that I’ve vented and ranted, here’s a poem.😉   



I’ve been walking into my church at random times lately, and the stillness and silence is beautiful and calming. It’s a great way to just find your focus and recharge and remember where you came from.


Like a tea kettle just before it begins to whistle.

Like nails on a chalk board.

Like a child’s face before they throw themselves into a tantrum.

Like a doormat who has had countless pairs of shoes wiped across it.

Like quicksand.

Like ocean waves- 10 feet high.

Like the tears we cry when we lose our minds.

Like the worst body tension you could ever imagine.

Like a gas bubble that traps itself in your chest.

Like the anxiety you feel in a crowded elevator.

Like the eggshells that break even with the slightest breath.

The want to be everything to everyone.

It’s a failure before it even starts.

Because how much can you give of yourself?

Who is that selfless? Can we be that selfless?

Who is that void of anxiety?

How do we leave sanity for ourselves?

Can I scream into the wind?

Or cry into a pillow?

Can I lift this weight?

Can I cast it up into the air and watch it turn into fairy dust and glitter?

Gold flecks. Everywhere.

Butterflies dancing in my hair.

Can I center my soul?

Breathe deep.

Walk through the broad, merciful, gold doors.

Sit silently still.

Find him, find where he lives in you.

He’s got you. He knows you. He’s with you.

Know your heart.

Know your person.

Act on it.

You got it kid.




Describe yourself in Fictional Characters

So I’ve noticed this bit of a “Describe Yourself In 3 Fictional Characters” challenge/trend surface on the internet lately. And I loved it and instinctively wanted to turn it into a blog post.

As a writer I have a ton of fictional characters that I relate to and feel like somehow mirror my personality. I love identifying bits of myself in characters I see written and portrayed on screen. I couldn’t decide so I did 4, #ICheated #SorryNotSorry. (well Pocahontas is based on a real woman so I guess I didn’t cheat, there’s three fictional here!) 

So here goes…

Haley James (Pre-Scott)

Portrayed By Bethany Joy Lenz

TV Show: One Tree Hill

If you’ve followed this blog before, you know my obsession with this character. It is real and she is probably my most beloved tv character. Since the first day I started watching One Tree Hill, she was the one I felt was most like me. She was the shy, smart girl who was way beyond her years, wanted to help everyone, had this keen sense between right and wrong, wasn’t popular but had her friends and family who she would do anything for and dressed kind of funky. She is my spirit animal. As later seasons came, she of course got cooler, started dating a jock, made friends with the in crowd, dressed better/different, got married in high school, and became this total rock star, made some mistakes, redeemed herself, had a baby in high school, and then later on became an English teacher and co-owner of the new and improved Karen’s Café. All while looking flawless the whole damn time. Which goes to show you, why I really identified with her in the first season mostly. As much as I love Haley James Scott, Haley James was simple, was real and her life seemed normal. Without all the fancy pants stuff, at her root Haley James-Scott or not has always had a strong moral code and a big heart and for that alone I will always be a fan. #ThatJeanJacketTho



Voice-Irene Bedard,  Singing Voice-Judy Kuhn

The Disney Film

While all the little girls wanted to be Cinderella, and Snow White, I related most to Pocahontas. To me, is was the Disney Princess who I felt looked most like me. For starters her olive complexion and her free spirit. Her barefoot adventures and love of sunflowers and jewelry and feathers. I love the story, I love her roots and how she knows who she is and knows that her family her everything. She makes decisions based on what’s best for her, she’s independent despite the many trying to decide what’s best for her. She explores, she is curious. The Indian culture has always fascinated me, and I have always felt a pull to it. She is probably the reason why.

Raven Baxter

Portrayed By Raven Symone

TV Show: That’s So Raven

FreeForm shows old school Disney shows late at night and once night I caught That’s SO Raven on TV, and I couldn’t help but laugh and see a bit of myself in her. Her crazy fashion choices, I have had my moments. #BlueLipStick #FlowersInMyHair #FurrySweaters Her impromptu dancing, her absurd slang. It’s all me. #YANASTY #OHSNAP I love her, and I too at times feel psychic. #SHHHH😉 Also can we just state that Raven paved this way for curvy girls to feel good about themselves. She wasn’t perfect, she was curvy and loud and fun and colorful and she was SUCCESSFUL! Raven is most like my younger self, and I think she comes out still every once in a while.

Jane Villanueva

Portrayed By Gina Rodriquez

TV Show: Jane the Virgin

Let’s put aside the whole baby daddy/mama drama, that is this show. Yes Jane was accidentally artificially inseminated and instantly was thrown into motherhood way ahead of her planned out life’s schedule with a guy’s baby, who she never expected to come back into her life. That is the juicy stuff and my life is nothing like hers in that sense. But for some reason in a lot of other ways, Jane may be the character I relate most too. She’s always the responsible one, but when she messes up she owns up to it, and when she let’s loose, her beauty shines. She’s an older 20’s. She is a curvy Latina, with a heart of gold and good morals and extremely close to her family. She believes in love and is a hopeless romantic-not to mention a soap opera fan too. My favorite part-she’s a writer and she is constantly drifting off into her own world, as she stars in her scenes as she writes them. Her morals are very similar to mine and I adore her character as a whole, because everything I mentioned about her holds true for me too. She spontaneous dances too, so I mean we’re twins who need to meet and be best friends.

As you can tell I love seeing strong, determines, driven, independent, caring, loving, kind, big heart of gold female characters. They are what inspires me to write and to be a better woman.



*I do not take credit for any images used.*