The Faceless Man…

A followup to: Screw the timeline…

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“The Faceless Man”

Oh wouldn’t that be something if I knew god’s plan

and I could put a face upon this faceless man

Wouldn’t matter if he was rich

the wealth of love would be enough within his kiss

Tired mind meets tired heart

two opposites that learn to fight a losing battle

Although the mind is strong

It’s the heart that leads the way

No need for a boy

without a clue

To them love is a waste less art

But the faceless man can still see

See all the love that is within me

And although his eyes are deemed colorless for now

They shall one day be revealed and reflect brightly in mine

Often times hope wears and tears with age

And age may only be but a number

But still we hope

We hope for a man who can follow through

we hope for a man who will actually care for you

Those who came before this faceless man are only learned lessons

Don’t take it personally

you just weren’t meant for me

We just weren’t meant to be

We don’t have to be friends

we don’t have to be enemies

Just indifference is all it seems to be

In the sky

is a bright bright star

And I know my eyes lock with his through these dark distances

Unknowingly so

For he is seeing that same star

Once those colors set in

The Faceless Man awaits and will erase all faces before him

Because a woman unsure

is a woman with a deep heart

and a gentle soul

And a man with no clear face

is a man with a heart waiting to find its home

-<3-

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Haven’t done this little tidbit in a while…so…

FYI: Totally gained extra emotional momentum listening to Sara McLachlan’s

album entitled Surfacing…yea it’s a Sara McLachlan kind of day 😀

P.S. shout out to Miley Cyrus’ lyric

“We don’t have to be friends, we don’t have to be enemies” from her song “two more lonely people.”

I was listening to that in my in between phases of starting and finishing this poem and I heard that and thought it fit perfectly so…thanks miles…gotta give credit where credits due boo 😉

Happy Weekend Folks 😀

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Screw the timeline…

tumblr_ml016gU2QO1s90aajo1_500So my best friend and I recently had a conversation about how a lot of people our age around us seem to be rushing  into adulthood and parenthood a little too quickly and although we respect other people’s choices we also know what we want for ourselves. 22 years old…we are ONLY 22 years old! And in some ways I feel like our lives are just beginning, and we are just now starting to understand who we are and who we want to be. Nowadays everything you do is debated by the world around you (thank you social media!) haha. But once you realize that you have to create your OWN timeline, and find what works best for you…well then you’ll be fine. I mean this generation needs an update. You don’t NEED to get married in your late teens/early twenties, and you don’t NEED to start a family right now either! You HAVE  time. You have time to figure out who you are without the additional company of someone else, you have time to pave your way to a career you love and you have time to understand what you want out of life…. your life. So screw the timeline, it’s outdated and unrealistic in today’s day and age, and just create your own timeline… but also learn what deserves to have your time…and what doesn’t. With that said…clock-girl-vintage-Favim.com-191471

Tick Tock, Tick Tock goes the clock

As a girl checks outside her door once more

All she sees  is an empty door mat greeted by emptiness and heaviness

Everything used to make her think of you

everything would somehow relate her to you

But after waiting

after learning

The breeze ungentle and the heat uncomfortable

She decided it best she close that door

She was tired of watching the tumbleweed roll by

and tired of  tripping over childish schemes

Realization is a tough pill to swallow

but some water will wash it down

and now slowly the girl who once used to wait around for you

could care less what your up to

She understands you were just a moment

a lesson to learn

and every lesson gives experience

experience that will eventually turn into a new face

A faceless man with many smiles and eyes with love to give

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The Faceless Man awaits your heart

a face with genuine personality

a face she doesn’t even know exists

a face worth her time and worth her heart

all in good time

all in good time you see

Tick Tock, Tick Tock went that clock

And that girl took it and threw it away

But her mother cleaned it up and brought it back to her

and her friends said save it for another day

in every person’s heart there is a clock

and that clock will one day sound an alarm

a new aged ringtone that will harmonize with another’s

all in good time all in good time you see

All in good time that clock will bring that new face in

and this world will one day make sense

-<3-

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A moment of Clarity saves your Sanity

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In life there are always going to be things you wish were different, things you can’t control. People come into your life, and people go. And for what ever the reason, it always seems to make sense further down the road. But over the past few weeks, or for the better part of my college life, I’ve realized all of that is preparation for adulthood. I am not the same girl I am today that I was when I ended high school, nor am I the same girl I was when I started college. I will admit when we all graduated high school it was difficult, we were all scattered at different colleges, and it was difficult to handle, and difficult to see each other at times. But we always managed to find a way. I’ve gone through several situations that have made me realize things happen for a reason. It’s so important to surround yourself with people who are going to support you  in everything you do, and you should support them the same.

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10419_1233674963198_5465578_nI am fortunate to have made an amazing group of friends in high school with the addition of a few old childhood friends who no matter what, I know will always be in my life. I’ve heard people say that “you don’t meet your best friends in high school, you meet them in college.” And although I’ve gained friends in college, I can honestly say that for me, my most important friendships are those that I’ve carried with me through most of my life.

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The girls who know me better than anyone, the girls who I’ve had countless inside jokes with and who I’ve had endless conversations with about nothing, the girls who no matter how long we go without seeing each other, when we do it’s like we never left high school. All of the close friends I have in my life as of today, I have known for a good number of years.

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1001166_10201057209813607_1180823440_nIn fact I’ve had the same best friend my entire life. I think that what is most important to our friendship is allowing the others to grow, as you grow. Because people change, times change, circumstances change, and it’s about accepting that and adapting to change that allows your friendships to grow. It’s not to say that it isn’t going to be hard, because let’s face it life throws a lot of things at us, some of them opportunities and some of them obstacles. But once you understand each individual has their own pace and their own path in life, you realize as long as you respect that, there is always room for each other. I now understand that the people who you turn to for advice, the people who you share your world with are the people who you call your best friends. I have also learned that because I’m starting to understand all of this, I know that the friendships I have are worth my time and effort. I also have learned that friendships who lose touch can sometimes be repaired, because the crap you dealt with in high school is all behind you now! 😀

So shout out to all my girls for always being there, I don’t think I could have asked for a better group of friends ❤

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And sometimes people come into your life and you just click ❤

I always say my friends are my sanity and with this group I can safely say its true. Because friends become the family you pick for

yourself. And like my actual family these girls are always there for me…

So Thank You! Roe, Corine, Kate, Michelle, Lauren, Jordan (Buddykins), Jenny, Stav, Stella, Fatoosh, and O’sheazzie 😀

-<3-

And a good time was had by all…

*So it’s been quite a while since I’ve had the time nor the inspiration to get back into the blogging groove…but like I always say I consider myself a writer, and even when I’m not writing I’m still thinking about writing and making mental notes for when the time comes that I feel like I have something to say.*

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Senorita ❤

So for the past month or so my mom and I have been going crazy planning my graduation party and so we’ve been on the go non-stop. Planning everything from the food menu, to the centerpieces, to the color of the napkins and tablecloths, to the Dj’s playlist, to the seating chart to all the other little annoying necessities.

You know it’s so crazy how you plan and you plan and you plan all for it to be over in 4 hours. But I have to say it was seriously one of the best 4 hours of my life; surrounded by family and friends who actually matter, and who actually wanted to be there to celebrate with me.

My family is psychotic and I don’t think there was ever a moment where the dance floor was left empty haha. Things like that make all the planning and the stressing worth it. And my crazy friends fit right in with my crazy family! It was quite the crowd!

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“I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling “22” everything will be alright if you keep me next to youuu” ❤ #21ers #22ers

There may have been some hiccups a long the way, but in the end it all turned out well and everyone had an amazing time! I have to say, me and my friends screaming at the top of our lungs to  N’SYNC’s “Tearing up my heart” and Taylor Swift’s “22” were definitely some awesome highlights! So was laughing as we all tried to remember how to do the electric slide! Yea I went old school on that one! In fact my entire playlist could probably be described as 5 decades crammed into 4 hours!

Download "Never Changed" by Jeremy & DLo on soundcloud....trust me its pretty rad!

Download “Never Changed” by Jeremy & DLo on soundcloud….trust me its pretty rad!

I also got to have my DJ play my two cousin’s newest track and had everyone jamming to it, that was really something, to see the two of them so happy to hear something they created, surrounded by a room of people who enjoyed it! In fact no one even knew it was them until all the other cousins started telling the guests and everyone was so surprised! lol…it was a good time for all!

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But the most precious and memorable moment was when my cousin asked me to be my niece’s godmother, I was so surprised that I cried! It was such an emotional moment and I am so honored and can’t wait to baptize (and spoil) her! ❤ ❤ ❤

I'm gonna be a godmother, I'm gonna be a godmother!!!! :D

I’m gonna be a godmother, I’m gonna be a godmother!!!! 😀

And last but not least there are a few people I needed to thank that made my party happen!… My family, my parents for throwing me this party and my brother for capturing its amazing moments, because of all that I am able to have memories that will last a lifetime.

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holy candy table!

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BIG thanks to my girl and her fam for my table of treats….the guests thought it was a hit! 😀


So end result A GOOD TIME WAS HAD BY ALL!

And I couldn’t think of a better way to say goodbye to my college years,

then by spending it with the people who matter most to me!

Goodbye College…it’s been real

-<3-

Washed Out

Stomach in knots

Try and try but can’t help it

Try to forget

But can’t help where we’ve been

May have been simple

May have not gone very far

May have acted prematurely

because maybe it was all in my head

Explaining it is hard

Feeling  like a fool

May not be nothing new at this time in life

Thinking and hoping

Read far too much into an empty gesture

Thought you felt something like I did too

Maybe it was a momentary spark

One that died out quickly for you

Because now I know the truth

All you  do is emotionally abuse

It’s unfortunate how you’ve opted to see me

as nothing but a useless heart

It’s the feeling

The feeling a girl gets when she’s washed out

Time will heal

Time will tell

Time is moving at a standstill now

Someone come quick

It’s all washed away

The feelings she once may or may not have felt

Confusion afloat

But when words go unsaid

and actions go undone

The water washes in

and the heart fades

Fades as it gets overrun

Time will heal

Time will tell

And eventually that girl will move on from being washed out

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Peyton’s Drawings; One Tree Hill