I’m going to switch gears a little bit this week. I know I’ve been posting Love Conflicted chapters lately and I just feel like it’s oversaturating my blog with that one story. And maybe you guys aren’t into it that much. So anyone who has been reading along don’t worry, it will be finished. I will start posting new chapters in the near few weeks but I’m just going to take a little break. And get some new creative juices flowing.
Here’s a random scene…it literally just popped into my head as I sat here, thinking of what to post. I’m going to just go with it. Whether it turns into something long term or not…
I’ll call this one…
“Fight… or Flight?”
Dylan sees her sitting out on the porch, rocking in her white wicker rocking chair.
Her hair blowing in the summer night breeze.
She reaches over for her cup of tea.
Tea…she’s drinking tea.
She’s feeling anxious.
She’s trying to calm down.
He knows she’s upset.
Upset with him.
An inner struggle begins to build inside of him, his stomach is in knots.
What’s going on here?
Why can’t they seem to get on the same page. Ever.
I hate seeing her unhappy. But lately it seems like I can never say or do the right thing,
Dylan decides to just swallow his pride and makes his way out onto the porch.
He walks out and leans on the fence overlooking the ocean view.
Their summer beach house was always a place of pure joy.
But something’s changed.
He feels her burning a whole through his head. Her eyes are on him. He can feel them. He could always tell.
Dylan turns around slowly to face her. He leans on the fence. Crossing his arms in front of his chest. His eyes finding hers.
Dylan: Can we talk?
Cassie looks at him. Her stare turning blank.
Dylan knows this isn’t going to be easy.
Dylan: I don’t know what you want from me, Cassie.
Cassie sighs and takes a sip of her tea.
Dylan: Will you talk to me please? What are thinking?
Dylan stares intently as if he’s trying to read her mind.
Cassie: How did we get here?
Cassie: What do you mean where Dylan? This place, this awful place. This place where we barely see each other, we barely talk to each other. I feel like I don’t even know you.
Cassie’s eyes begin to well up and her voice cracks so she stops talking. She looks down at her hands, and plays with her wedding rings.
Dylan: (noticing) Hey. Cassie, baby (he kneels in front of her, taking her hands) we’ve only been married for a year and a half, and we’ve had a lot of stressful things come our way. You know people say that the first year of marriage is the hardest, now add all the extra stuff we’ve had to deal with and it makes sense that we’d feel a disconnect.
Cassie: Yea well the honeymoon phase went by real quick.
Dylan: It’s just been a stressful time. We’ll get through it.
Cassie: Will we? Because lately I just feel like you’d rather put a half a dozen extra hours in at work, than come home and see me.
Dylan hangs his head.
Cassie: You know you used to actually hate leaving me in the mornings, and you couldn’t wait to come home and have dinner with me. Do you remember that?
Dylan: Of course I do. That hasn’t changed.
Cassie: Oh yes it has. Something is different. The way you look at me is different. You barely touch me. What happened to us? Do you not want this anymore? Do not want me anymore?
Dylan: Cassie. Cassie. Please stop.
Cassie: God! (she stands up quickly in a huff) You know what? Screw you! You wanted to talk. For the first time, in god knows how long. And now you don’t wanna hear what I have to say. This marriage is heading straight down divorce lane, and if you can’t meet me half way to try and fix this, then that’s it. I won’t continue to carry this marriage by myself.
Dylan: (pacing, feeling anxious, like he’s going to burst) Cassie. Cassie. I slept with someone.
Minutes go by. Minutes that feel like hours to Dylan.
Dylan: Please say something.
Cassie starts laughing.
Dylan looks at her confused.
He doesn’t know what to make of her reaction.
Cassie wipes her tears; a mixture of tears from laughter and tears from heartbreak.
Cassie: I knew it. I knew it. And now I know I haven’t been completely insane. Wondering where you are…what you were doing. Your the reason for all of this. You did this. You wrecked us.
Dylan: Cassie I am so sorry. It didn’t mean anything. I was just going through something, I don’t know where my mind was-
Cassie is staring out into the ocean view, she’s miles away. Even more so then before.
Dylan: Cassie, please-talk to me.
Cassie: I’m done talking.
Cassie: (sighs heavily) I’m going to bed.
Cassie walks off back into the house, in silence.
Dylan sits on the porch, his head in his hands, knowing this may just be the beginning of the end.